so much 2 do so little time

first of all, gratz 2 jennifer o wat me n my fren cal her (nini) 4 getting marry in 28 dec 2008. i cant believe its so soon. T.T so fast b come someone else wife alr. hope u stil hav time hanging out wit us. fortunately i was invited 2 d wedding n im 1 of d bridemaid XD. OMZG!! tis is d first time i b bridemaid so i kind of excited abt it. going 2 post al abt it ltr.

christmas jz ended not long ago but cny is jz around d corner. a lot of preparation r being done, 4 those who noe me could tel tat im 2 lazy 2 help (which is true but tis yr i going 2 do my part) y? d other day, hm's mum came over n had a chat wit my grandma, they talked abt d preparation 4 cny. at tis point, my grandma say tat is gd 4 her as hm help a lot around her hse. her mum also said tat she been a great help n she vy grateful abt it. after her mum left, my aunt comment on how hardworking hm is. so tis time i wil try 2 help out n wont lost 2 hm (which is vy diff cuz she even help 2 wash d toilet, how could i top tat?) really salute 2 u gal!!

wil b starting my job on my aunt tax firm soon. its a pretty easy job. i go to work 2 days on d weekday frm 9.30am til 3 pm n d pay is abt 1k.i dun even hav 2 worry abt transport o accomodation as my aunt wil b driveing me n im living wit her. d oly bad news is her home do not hav internet access so i oly able 2 on9 during office hour.. (sob sob thr go my fave past time) however wil try 2 go bac 2 melaka frm time 2 time to have internet n curi tulang. (im tat lazy -.-'')

tats abt sum up every ting 4 now, im stil new 2 blog so upload wil b slow. im trying 2 b faster >.<

life changes

nothing last forever. i find tis saying r damn accurate n true. wat i had n cherish now may b gone tmr. i jz graduate frm scm... feeling relieve and kind of depress at d same time. my routine and social lifes seems 2 b turning 360 degree. i gain a lot of freedom but now i felt it 2 b meaningless. sum may say tat now i am finish wit my diploma, i am closer 2 my goal. however it seem more far 2 reach for me. my determination drop every single day n every single second. its lk thr r a voice in my head saying jz give up, its no use, u r useless... now, im finding a gd degree course (which is d hardest ting, u have no idea malaysia hav how many col n uni) n trying 2 b as optismistic as i could. hoping 2 find wat i wan soon, if oly sum1 gets me sum hint.
as if tat is not enough, after christmas thr wil b another disaster happen 2 me. it was so damn shocking i dun even wan 2 mention wat is it. ( mostly b cuz im tired of typing so long ) haiz... really mis my carefree life n my frens...