hate you

STUPID STUPID STUPID! why cant u trust me? am i really that hard to trust? am i really so untrustworthy 2 u?

i really scare jz b cuz of tis i lose it all. if tats d case, its so not worth it. i jz wish u could trust me once. jz once. is it so hard 2 trust me jz once?

a reunion

meet up wit my form 5 cls mates. its been quite awhile since i last see them. al of them r looking more beautiful T.T we meet up in uncle john 2 yum cha den we go gogo ktv 2 sing k til 2 am. haha. had a great time. we even snap a few pic. pic wil b upload when they send it 2 me

jz read my fren ken latest post, having d feeling we r in a similiar kind of situation. i too hate to love but had fallen in love. its more painful than i anticipated but jz a smile make it feel so worth it. how long can a girl like me hold on? i wanna b closer 2 him. but instead i felt lk oly being his shadow.

my dream

i dream my sis holding a winnie the pooh handbag. she was putting her wallet, hp n etc inside. it look so cute that i wanna borrow it but kedekut sis wont lend it to me T.T she said she wanna use it. so cute!!

my message toward him

微微笑的看你 越是認真就越讓人心疼
街頭那盞路燈彷彿在笑我愚笨

沒什麼能做 但我比誰都真誠
泡一杯苦茶 陪伴你到夜深

你知不知道你總有一種很可愛的獨特
讓我充滿勇氣抵抗冬天的寒冷
怎樣做才會完美 像個男人
喝一杯苦茶溫暖你的體溫

不用等你開口先說我愛你
在那之前想對你說我願意
你不必問 你也不必等
這一刻 就值得愛到永恆
我該如何讓你明白我愛你
在那之後你點頭說我願意
想照顧你 想守護著你
這一刻 就想把你抱緊

你知不知道你也有一種很可愛的天真
大男孩的口吻魅力加到一百分

怎樣做才會完美 像個男人
喝一杯苦茶溫暖你的體溫

不用等你開口先說我愛你
在那之前想對你說我願意
你不必問 你也不必等
這一刻 就值得愛到永恆
我該如何讓你明白我愛你
在那之後你點頭說我願意
想照顧你 想守護著你
這一刻 就想把你抱緊

雖然永遠 太不可能少了你的完整
兩個對的人奇蹟就能發生

不用等你開口先說我愛你
在那之前想對你說我願意
你不必問 你也不必等
這一刻 就值得愛到永恆
我該如何讓你明白我愛你
在那之後你點頭說我願意
想照顧你 想守護著你
這一刻 就想把你抱緊

這一刻... 就想把你抱緊

my keyboard ^.^

tis week i brought 1 of those keyboard sticker. feeling excited i straight away go home after that... but i discover my laptop keyboard are smaller size (a lot) than regular 1. haiz... suan ba... n i jz left d sticker on my table. d next day my sis saw d sticker n she wan 2 stick it 4 me. i let her n it ended up lk tis...

ITS SO CUTE!!! although not al have sticker on them but i stil love it.

the turning

its feel lk a light started 2 shine lk a sun rising within me. it seem that evry thing is turning around 2 b better, i cant believe its true... however, after having some time to cool off and do some thinking. some one told me some thing thats makes a lot of sense. what if all of this is a set up? a joke?

inside of me some thing tells me everything not quite add up. its really weird. arrgh!!!! he is gd at making me staying awake no matter in wat circumstances. -.- wat shld i do? damn it.. if its really a joke what should i do? are we able to stay fren after that. i mean if its true i am very happy but there is stil not quite right.

i really wants to believe it. believe that he likes me. sum1 dear to me told me dun get my hopes up. what she say really makes a lot of sense. i really have no idea on what to do when it come to this type of matter. im helpless. what am i 2 do?

should i confront him? ask him is it true? i do not have such courage. should i continue keeping it a secret? i want an ans T.T
no matter what, i really cant decide now. but how long do i have? will problems come along? mayb i should wait for him 2 talk to me? but will he realise it. ( that wil b difficult since he so damn slow)

haiz..... now i can only leave it as it is and see what happen.

deeply confuse

getting the silent treatment was'nt always the worse but getting it from your crush its the worse. mayb i shld hav kept my mouth shut. i dunno if its 2 late 2 back out not. wat if d worse come true? he never speak to me again? he will look at me in total different way? will he stil treat me as his friend? expressing one self is hard, very hard. in reality, every step hav to think properly. one could wish to be able to erase it but... if i erase it, den he wont noe how i feel. i hav to keep every ting al bottle up again. sum say crying makes u feel better... but no matter how hard i try... no tear stil willing to come down for me...

in the middle of the night

what does it mean when a guy message you in the middle of the night? he misses you? wanted to see you? or just for the heck of it?

guy are so unpredictable...

one sided love

I know you're tried your best
But that's not good enough for me
Understand, nevertheless
Love's gotta go both ways

Well you push me to the left
Then you push me to the right
But you gotta meet me in the middle
If you wanna make this right

But you gotta believe....
So here it is, here it is, baby here it is....

I wanna help you out, tell you what it's all about
What I feel, what I need, how's it gonna be
So what you wanna do, what you really wanna do
'Cause I've decided everything i want from you

One sided love Is never gonna work
So let me tell you something
That' I'm sure you've never heard of
Tender love and care
In case you're unaware
So I tell you what
Let me tell you where it's at
Hit me with your best shot

I'm giving you a second chance
But you gotta understand
If you don't know how to love me
I will find someone who can
So read my lips for the last time
I tell you now with no regret
if you don't get your act together
Even your name, I will forget

another gal another enemy

i hate myself of tinking every gal outside as a possible enemy. every time he talk to a female, my fren envy show up. wat make me feel more guilty is, d gal is a great person n trying 2 b my fren. i kept myself under control and keep praying she dun lk him she dun lk him. at the end, it make me feel so selfish... i hate myself...