deeply confuse

getting the silent treatment was'nt always the worse but getting it from your crush its the worse. mayb i shld hav kept my mouth shut. i dunno if its 2 late 2 back out not. wat if d worse come true? he never speak to me again? he will look at me in total different way? will he stil treat me as his friend? expressing one self is hard, very hard. in reality, every step hav to think properly. one could wish to be able to erase it but... if i erase it, den he wont noe how i feel. i hav to keep every ting al bottle up again. sum say crying makes u feel better... but no matter how hard i try... no tear stil willing to come down for me...